Chapter III · My Testimony

Where Gavin Stands

01 · Before

Before I followed Christ, I followed the world. I wanted to be praised for my acomplishments. I wanted to be seen. I wanted people to know I was there.

I tried to fit in with whatever was trending. I wanted to be the best at everything. My purpose lived inside my performance.

02 · What I built my life on

Attention
Performance
Approval
Image

03 · The crash

If I did well in school or sports, I felt like somebody. If I didn't, and or eventually got injured and couldn't play, I was eaten my depression. I really thought accomplishments and titles were what made me special.

But I always needed more. A little attention was never enough. One achievement just made me hungry for the next. I was never satisfied.

04 · Why I followed Christ

I didn't follow Jesus as a way to get to heaven. I followed him because he cared for me. He approved of me. He stayed with me when I fell short. He stayed when I messed up.

He had already paid the price for me. He had redeemed me. The relationship with God I couldn't fix on my own, he had already restored.

05 · Where I stand now

My purpose is that I'm a child of God. No matter what I do or don't do, I'm always that.

For the first time, I feel complete. Content in my identity. Not because of what I've achieved. Because God claimed me as his own and it could do anything to push him away.